The weather has been absolutely gorgeous the last couple of days but that wasn't the case Sunday. Cold, damp, misty....the perfect reflection of my mood.
That may sound strange to you because I always try to be upbeat and positive, but if you read my Thanksgiving post or follow me on Facebook, you'll know that Friday (the 29th) was my deceased husband's birthday which made for a tough couple of days. Add to that the workload here at the Silver Spur Guest Ranch and by Sunday I was ready to just go ahead and have that nervous break down I keep putting off.
So I took a prayer walk (hike actually since the terrain here is hilly and rocky).
Out on the trail I found this horseshoe .....
......My initial thought was, "I might be bent but I'm not broken."
So I picked it up and began to thank God for the blessings in my life, for the good I've experienced, the good to come, and for the 20 years of wonderful memories I had with Terry.
Some say grief is a lifelong process and that we never get over losing a loved one, especially a spouse or child. Others say the cycle is five or seven years.
I believe grieving is a personal thing and everyone heals in their own way and time. Some assimilate the feelings and move on quickly, others take years to do so. Some never recover.
Not sure how long it'll take me to "get over" his death or stop grieving, but I have come a long way. Although I still have moments or days of profound, intense emotion, I am grateful that they are less frequent.
This horseshoe sits on my desk with the other treasures I've found out on the trail and will serve as a reminder that no matter what life throws at me, I am strong enough to bend without breaking.
No matter what you may be grieving (the loss of your spouse, child, parent, job, marriage) take heart and remember.... You might be bent but you are NOT broken.
Something to think about!
"Inspirational with an Edge!" ™